Next Disney ride: colonoscopy

Here's synchronicity in action: I have been in high anxiety for months: March, April, May. And I worried myself sick. Yes, you can get yourself sick by worrying.

So here I was feeling anxious and sick, away from home and having no clue what's wrong with me. One day, while reading a Grand Rounds post, I read about The Midwife with a Knife (a perinatologist ;) ) having a colonoscopy. The diagnostic was ulcerative colitis. I look it up and I figured: that's me, that's what I have. The post was very reassuring about both the procedure and curing the disease and it calmed down my fears.

The conclusion is: if you need a colonoscopy, go get it. It's not such a big deal. Yes, the prep is disgusting, but as far as the procedure goes, these days in the US they put you to sleep and you won't remember or feel anything. Fasting for 36 hours is pretty bad, but after the first missed lunch you get used to it. If I had to do it again, I would skip work during the prep, so plan for two free days for this: get a good book. My doctors also timed the medicine so that the worst of the cleaning happened before bed, so I could have a good night sleep. It's useful to make sure this happens. And make sure you have some disper rash cream handy... hey, isn't it grand to have a baby at home?

I indeed have colitis... why did I need a colonoscopy? I could have told them that because "I read about it in a blog" LOL ;) See how I'm using the taxpayers dollars and increasing the insurance rates unnecessarily!

Anxiety was under control and I feel like after another day at Disneyland.

A post on comments about the hospital to follow soon, this was just a if you're sick get thee to the doctor and don't complain about the colonoscopy.

Synchronicity

My therapist recommended a book about synchronicity about a month ago: The Tao of Psychology by Jean Shinoda Bolen.

I read a few chapters and I was bored. It wasn't such great writing. Then, one day, I got it. I read a chapter in that one day in which it was important to read it, in which lots of important stuff apparently unrelated came together.

Synchronicity is about events that happen and that we find connections between. The author suggests that noticing them as well as being more open to intuitive and/or emotional or artistic thinking uses a different part of the brain than the rational thinking.

I am an engineer, in a family of engineers, married to an engineer... so rational thinking was always big in my life. I started noticing synchronic events as a game, but it soon became a very important part of my growth and much of it has helped me crack the nut.

What happens to me, things people say, things I read in blogs that seem to have no connection whatsoever become very powerful nudges , eye openers or food for thought.

I wanted to talk about this in a separate thread because I will mention it a lot. It's been part of my thinking lately. If you're looking for something interesting to read give this book a try.